Tuesday, April 27, 2010

did you ever have a day where  something kept repeating throughout the day. colors are it today....shades of blue. funny how that happens.  sometimes it's a word that i hear again and again.  maybe it's a name, a town i've never heard of or a place, vacation destination or a restaurant. funny.
today, my e-bay keeps popping up on the screen...today must be a blue day....people are looking at blue....evne my blue willow sugar bowl, and antique.
go figure.
today has been much more quiet than yesterday. 
t.j.'s only request of the day was "soup". campbells. i think it's called soup to go.  

do you ever remember moments?  just moments....but specific moments?

t.j. can't chew very well with his braces...drinking microwave soup from the container is a long way from my father's biggest pet peeve, pushing the soup spoon away from you when you take a spoonful of soup.  i remember where we were, in our breakfast room, my dad was facing the window and the window was at my left. i had tomato soup for the first time and he told me it was his favorite. go figure.

did you ever have a recurring theme in your life...ever?  i have lots.


did you ever see something that reminds you of someone you love...just something little.  


one day while moseying through home goods, i came upon a whole display of summer plates...daisy plates. i thought of my mom...she would have loved the turquoise background and great daisies splashed all over the plates! she loved daisies.  i love daisies. 


i've been noticing lots of mom things.  i do all of the time.  certain things.  some jump out at me like daisies.  others are more quiet...like when i pull off the yellow/brownish leaves off of her geraniums.  always geranium pink, she would quietly gather the recalcitrant leaves and listen to her 40's tunes  on the radio, sometimes a bit crackly...i think of how she loved to poke at her plants...quietly....dressed
up, in her nightgown after her coffee and toast and orange juice and bit of crumb cake.  medicine for her arthritis was a part of the morning ritual.


rituals.  she thrived on those rituals....breakfast and the morning in general was big in the ritual department.


i can remember every detail of her day.  she progressed through her morning in a very specific order. there was a predictability about those mornings. even grace and t.j. knew how she rolled in the mornings!


maxwell house ground coffee.


tropicana o.j.
ground coffee in mr.coffee coffee maker.


orange juice. tropicana.
while the coffee is brewing, she took her arthritis medicine and her aspirin. she stood at the kitchen sink and drank out of a small glass cup, placed the cup on the counter, poured her o.j. into the cup.
next stop.  run the  stengl coffee cup under hot water, pour the mr. coffee into warmed up cup. sit at the kitchen table with the coffee...take one sterling teaspoon of sugar, stir and sip. then, she would open her new york times....and slowly  sip her coffee. oh! wait! i forgot her toast...her whole morning was based on the perfect piece of cinnamon toast.
her toast would arrive at the table already buttered becasue apparently the toast would lose heat in the travel time.  this process was  well thought out. she sat at the table and crunched into the perfectly browned pepperidge farm cinnamon raisin toast, sip coffee, read paper, sip coffee, finish toast....pour new coffee and carry her small piece of crumb cake to the table and butter it...sip coffee and bite.


the dishes in the sink, wash the dishes, clean the sink was another long process.
shopping was a big part of her process.  here goes,,,,

sorry i'm having a tough time getting my pics tonight...i'm falling asleep. this late night blogging and e-bay is exhausting!


sorry for the mixed up story...my eyes are literally closing!


Monday, April 26, 2010

too much,too little,too late

too much, too little, too late! those are my words right/write now....long day. lots to do.
too tired.
long days, late nights.
no good.
hurry up. 
now.
hurry, please!
pleeeeeeez!
just a minute.
oh, don't do that.
soon? 
when?
no way, never!
no, it's o.k.
no, i'm not!
could you please?
do you mind?
is there anything to eat here?
why?
why now?
are you kidding me?
i will. i did. i won't.
don't say that.
i'll be right there!
i know.
uh huh.
yup.
sure.
o.k.
tell her to be quiet.
why did you let him?
where?
i forgot.
i didn't see it.
come on?!
wait...wait...wait...please wait!
that was some of the day....it was a really nice day. just non stop and random and going and going and going.
600.wake up.
700. kids go
730.biff and i go to t.j.'s school to meet the principal just because we wanted to chat before the end of the year. we love that guy. runs a tight ship.
830 leave school
845 back home
850 call t.j.'s school...forgot to tell mrs. healy i had to pick t.j. up at 920 for orthodontist.
915 leave home...bring daisy for some 1 on 1 quality time!  i swear!
920 pick up t.j.
926 drove right past the exit...how? just on auto pilot....and 7 minutes back around.
934t.j. at orthodontist we love. pay. great people in that office...lots of smiles...for real!
t.j. psyched to get out of school evenif he has to have wire wrapped in and around and upside down all of his teeth....it's worth it for time out of the building.
930 orthodontist with ted for his 2 hour appointment to have braces set.

945 leave orthodontist
948 car won't start vrmmmmmmmSTOP.
949 car won't start vrmmmmmmmmmmSTOP.
950 call biff...this is wierd biff.....he is in office nearby...interrupt him....i take daisy for walk while i wait for biff. i am up a hill and over when biff arrives.
1000 he arrives. love that guy. i greet with daisy. all give kisses.
1001 biff starts car...vrmmmmmmmmmmVRMMMMMMM.
car actually started on 1st try.  am i munchhausen mom of car...create problem for car to get husband attention? pathetic...not even i would do.
1005hear ticking noise in car while biff is still there with motor running.  ticktickticktick....biff hears it...thank goodness or i'm crazy.
biff listens. says i should go get oil changed. when did i change oil last?/ hmmmmm? when did we get this car?  no really.  really?  hmmmmmm.....maybe in the winter...when in the winter.,....let's see....i was wearing....was it the day it was raining...ohm, wait that's today. lots of rain....on me.....daisy...biff.  kiss biff. thanks biff.  biff you better go to work. thanks.
1020 go to starbucks with daisy...gentle dog.  see favorite police lt.....or is that short for light? anyway police sarg that got promotion to lt....get it?  say hi to lt. o'....say hi to anne....ask if they will pooch sit daisy....ann thought i asked her to babysit t.j. since they're in the same grade.  odd look she gives me...hmmmm. no not ted, he's at the teeth guy.\\oh, really, he's getting braces.  ned is not getting braces. lt. o' says ...my son didn't need them....i said oh wait...how bout you watch daisy out here while i get coffee.....oh hi laurie...how are you....everyone says hi...how are you wait...gotta go...how are ...see you ...call..

well, that lasted about til almost yikes!
1130 yikes have to pick up t.j.
call teeth secretary......oh, hi is t.j.done cuz i'm on my way......
1200t.j. almost ready. watching video on how to care for hardware in mouth.   finish. talk to lovely great dentist...great smile.
bye to receptionist...great smile.
1201t.j.is checked out on time stamp for pass for school
1210 t.j.goes back up to teeth guy to see if he can eat with all of this electicl wiring in mouth.
yes.
1215 back to car with mom and daisy smiling.
1217t.j.wants to eat at mc.d's ...we NEVER go there anymore....once a year maybe 2 if desperate...sounds fine....he says lunch is over...where could he eat? in the hall?  in the english class with british english teacher who is very strict...thankfully.  t.j. also comes up with idea that he must eat and stop at home b/c he has to brush...first day does not want to have food in there...GROSS MOM!
1220mc.ds order.pay. even i get some....o.k.done. sorry daisy none for you...probs better for daisy than for us.   drive toward school...t.j. says i should at least let him brush....hard to argue with brushing.....sure...another minute.  he really is a good patient and has no complaints other than gross thought of food in wires.  i remember theresa in 9th grade...STILL...bad memories of t. eating cheetos and having yellow/orange cheeeeetos all wrapped up and tangled and squishy in her big silver braces...good diet for 9th grade weight obsessed me.  no interest in eating if i see t. teeth after cheeeeetos...which she seemed to have everyday...maybe i should have changed tables. just thought of that! darn.phew....t.g. i don't have to go thru 9th grade again.....thank GOD that someone in ny state stole the math regents....life was good sometimes in 9th grade....except t. and her cheeeeeeto teeth.  gotta go brush just thinking of that....gotta sleep...
but, much more.
t.j. to school. 
home
phone rings at home.
grace
me 
text comes in from grace...needs lacrosse skirt...lacross #shirt for game.
what game? i say...game today
must have by 2:15
o.k. it's 1:45.
wait. must take fitzy and daisy out.
get in car and wait...better get my ebay to mail....didnt get to blog....darn...i wanted some quiet to sit.do work. do blog. do ebay. do......
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
NO because then the message...text comes....from grace....wait...another
it's from biff.grace txtd him wen i didnt answer....txtxtxtxtxtxtxttxtxtxtmomhurry...mom are you coming.  bus is here...txyxtxtxtxttxtxtxt...i'm driving. cell phone falls to floor of car...phone rings and rings and rings....i figure i better pull over and get the phone...maybe t.j. has been electocuted with new wiring.
stopped car with new valvoline oil...forgot to mention that at 1000 this am.  then talked on cell to mb about her garden club in atlanta. southern belles etc.
STOP CAR, crawlo under seat where phone is stuck....phone rings again. i;m coming grace, im coming grace....bus is here....where are you...cant miss bus game is in alaska....i have to be on the bus.....i dirive in parking lot at school...bhind bussssessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssand then the phone rings and i hear grace and i anser saying.....i am right here can you see me.....grace says it's too late//////i say no it is not too late b/c i am here and i can see you there. come get the bag of stuff.  thanks mom. thatnks mom thanks bye love you see you later have a great game have fun on the bus.
225get home. sit. bathroom. 2 large coffees later. glad i thought to take a sec...with dogs in batheroom....dogs wondering why we need that porcelaine.....i dont discuss that matter with them.
quiet. ahhhhh.
sit. log on.look at ebay to mail. start to read email.....and 
235t.j walks    in. hi good day. great only 2 hours of school. i like that. principal says you are a great kid.....oh mom he's just saying that. ok i say, i guess he doesn't know you......even a compliment gets questioned. oh mom.
then, tj says hardware in mouth pinches...no not like the other spots.  only back inside right...i call smiling receptionist. hi. yes . back. teeth....yes pointy.  poking. hurts...yes wire, poking wire....oh....hmmmmm yes 415!
330 t.j. we can go at 415. we must leave at 400
ok tj is ready to go. mouth must hurt if he is jumping up to go.
ok.....moments....1/2 hour.....snip hardware wire pointy thingy.  thank you nice smiling. bye.

455tj says mom remember you promised me if i did my homework immediately after school that you would take me to cleveland to get that thing at that place about 3000000 miles away. yes i remember. well, grace is away. where is that game anyway? oh my gosh. game is where i wanted to go today to get new washing machine since ours is dead since flood.  would like matching dryer too  pretty color...maybe not in basement ...cut out the middle man.../floor.
ok tj i will take you......on and on and on.
630biff calls. where are you? 2 blocks away. where are you. looking out the front living room window.....i see you..ok love you see u in a minute.....
hi kissskisss...loook at tj teeth.....wow tj wow you still look handsome.
i take dogs outside in rain...do wee bit of yard work...little..camera...pics....dogs....throw ball with daisy...while fitzy watches......biff comes to door....GRACE IS ALMOST HOME FROM GAME>>>WILL U PICK HER UP? i'm cooking dinner so do you mind......now i'm soaked but thats ok.
i get in car i drive to pik up grace.
rain.cars.bus.car.bus.cars...kids...happy kids...kids won game. i take pic. grace not 
 
happy that i take pic. actually, kind of not nice...then calms..then we talk about game....friends....school....home.......homework/////
 
.....radio.car...radio


home dinner kids homework teeth dentist calls to ase about tj...smile  nice nice man who loves his work......good job.....maybe someone shosuld be orthodontist....smile....dinner...nice...fun...kids must shower.......biff needed to do email
i wanted ebay
grace homework tedshower.
me alone...very late, ebay facebook for about 5 mins...sat to write that im too tired to post blog....now really late,,,,,,what did ya do today? nothing much how bout you?

Saturday, April 24, 2010



did you ever know someone for your whole life? yes....and did you ever know them to surprise you again and again?  some friends, very good life long friends....that you may not see that often....you may not talk that often....you are separated by distance from these good old friends.....your lives have moved in different directions, so you think.....and still, every time you talk...you know each other so well that you don't have to explain yourself....it's just like yesterday....yesterday seems like years and years ago and at the same time like minutes ago!








that's ginny.  she has been my friend since i can remember having friends.  ours is  a friendship that came about organically.  we lived near each other...our families were friends...we went to the same school...the same church...brownies...girl scouts.....and....we played at polliwog.









i can't remember not having my friend ginny in my life.  sure, we had other friends, we've moved, we've lost touch and reconnected many times....we've always remained good old friends.












we've lived  and weddings, wakes and funerals... it's just how life is.  i find the gift of friendship to be the biggest gift in my life...besides family.  although, many of my friends are my own creation of family...

when grace was just 5 and t.j. 3 1/2, our phone  rang....it was ginny to let us know she'd like us all to be at her wedding...she wanted grace and ted to be there with us....she  had never met them....this was her chance. from such a huge family with 9 brothers and sisters and so many nieces and nephews, i was flattered to think she cared enough to have us there....and our kids too!











we went to the church where we both were baptized....













and all of the little kids sat up on the altar surrounding the bride and groom....her husband was her dream come true....i was as happy for her as she was for me on my day....biff loved her too. 









the first wedding grace and t.j. had ever been to was as fun as a kid could imagine.  formal and traditional.....my friend stepped to the dance floor with her dad....we waited for daddy's little girl to begin.....a song i loved so much....and the band began....
"hoist up the john b. sail, see how the main sail sets, call up the captain ashore, i wanna go home!......"beach boys"

.......her dad was john b. and they did sail together!  that was ginny!  that was my friend! grace and ted loved weddings....and we always think of ginny whenever we here that beach boys song!











what's the expression?  "you can choose your friends but you can't choose your family!"

i've seen pillows that say,"friends welcome anytime, but family requires reservations!"
i'm blessed to love both family and friends. since i am much younger than my two brothers, i've found my own sisters along the way....maybe to compensate.  

i love my brothers.....even though they still treat me like i'm twelve.  it's hard for grace and t.j. to understand that.  they try.  grace and ted have the good and the bad of being only sixteen months apart and one grade apart. they share the same friends if they happen to be in the same place....they no longer play together...ha! they no longer "hang" together...they both go their own ways and if they happen to cross paths, they all know each other.












that was not my life with family.  my brothers were close in age as well....then, i arrived 8 years later.  biff and i laugh about it....two brothers with their together dynamic for 8 whole years.....and then...KABOOM...this baby girl arrived.









i'm sure that was a difficult adjustment....for them!  i was just fine. i had my life.  i loved it...i could play with everyone and still go home and have my stuff.  i had these two very big brothers who were family yet we lived in different worlds.















it only came as  shock to me as i began my teenage years...i thought i had grown up....i thought i could understand them since i was so mature....but NOT.  NEVER has that day come.  STILL i imagine that day might come....but really, no. it's just not meant to be. 









oh, don't get me wrong! i'm blessed to have two wonderful brothers.  they've been very good to me.  very good.  they have been protectors.  they have been baby sitters.  they have been there.  they are forever my big brothers.  apparently, i'll always be the little sister...which isn't so bad after all....especially as i get older!











well, it's only logical.  by the time i was in 4th grade, one brother went to college and in 5th grade both brothers were off to college. they were back...but they worked.  they got jobs...they had cars...they were at woodstock!

even since i've been married and had babies, then toddlers, school kids, teens....and they still treat me like i'm  twelve. i can only imagine it from their point of view....

















back to my friends...i'm grateful.  i'm grateful that my friends are so close...that we all treat each other like family....not pets with a pat on the head!
although, in our family, we treat our sweet pets with lots of love!












just yesterday, the mail arrived...with a giant package. the package was from ginny

i forgot about our facebook chat.  we have been in touch...especially christmas cards...maybe a birthday here or there....now we've become friends on facebook!we have reunited with lots of "friends"....old and new....just like bumping to each other on the street at home or even polliwog, friends pop up with funny comments, lots post literary quotes, status or day to day ironies, some post words of encouragement  or reminisce....and that's a great connection...it's a potpourri of people and poetry and polling and poking fun!











friends pop up unexpectedly and randomly and comment on life and make a thoughtful comment or photos of family and brighten the day....randomly...we cross paths on facebook with friends and family too.


recently, ginny posted pictures of family....all of her brothers and sisters and their families and more.  the faces are familiar and bring back yesterdays and yesterdays more....i smile again and again as i click...with tears in my eyes.....as i see familiar faces and their eyes and smiles in the next generation....and my day is happier...brighter.


ginny posted photos of her artwork...pastels and sketches and portraits and seascapes.  i was in awe of her spectacular work and her artistic sense and talent that i had never known......after all these years!

i had to post comments.....like, "wow!", "i can feel the ocean in this!",  "look at that sky!" and one that made me gasp!



my post said, "this looks just like grace!".....i could feel her spirit....i could see her jumping over the dunes!  i could smell the ocean air and take pictures of the perfect beach day....i could smell the coppertone!














ginny posted some comments on my wall as well.  we made little connections throughout the months since we've officially "friend-ed" on facebook!

she said it was in the mail.  she said it was for me...she said it was because i said it looked like grace at the beach!

it just arrived!  i  could barely speak...a rare thing....biff was with me when i opened the large box.....filled with Styrofoam packing peanuts.....they spilled out as i tugged at the bubble wrap covering the framed pastel...

i tugged and tugged and tugged....biff and i finally got hold of the tightly wrapped masterpiece.  we began peeling back the tape that held the bubble wrap securely.  


i was rambling about good old friends....i was rambling about how unbelievable that my friend would just send it to me......me......just because i said it looked like grace.


we got it open....i held my arms wide open to hold up the gold frame with the beautiful blue pastel sky and green grassy dunes.....









i cried tears of joy....my friends are my family!  for life! i'm grateful.




Friday, April 23, 2010









here i sit. it's the beginning of the weekend.  i love the weekend. although i do have a moment that i think to myself, o.k. what can we do, what can we accomplish, where will we go, let's make the most of it.

then, i breathe.  i think to myself, is that really how i want to live?  i like the structure. structure is good...especially for our kids....especially to keep biff and i to keep focused.

we're both a tad overwhelmed since we still drive up the driveway to see two giant dumpsters filled to overflowing.....it's more the look of sanford and son than marthastewart http://www.magazine-agent.com/martha-stewart-living/magazineor 

country home magazine!
http://www.countryliving.com/homes/ 
we have stuff...we have stuff in the yard...we have workers who promise to come back....they are tending to bigger and better flood families!

so, i am torn.  do i try to clean up the lawn, the inside, the garage, shop for the new washer and dryer, walk the dogs at the beach, mail e-bay to customers, sell e-bay 

or shop for new clothing that was lost in the flood...just askin'

we seem to be temporarily frozen in neutral. we do little bits at a time. we get interrupted by life. we have your average interruptions...  family, dogs, cats, meetings, appointments...and some time to just be.  just quietly be.

we all need to have balance. balance keeps us "centered!"....the overused sensitive new age word of the day. peace. hmmmmmm. core. flax seed kind of words that we have integrated into our daily vocabulary to let people know that we are hip to the health culture. we don't mention when we eat chips. by the way, don't mention the peanut m&m's in the company of others either!

it's a dead giveaway that you are not conscious of life choices.
use words like, granola, bran





greens, bran, water, soy, tofu.

be subtle.  very subtle.  these are my own personal suggestions
use them quietly. do not shout these out. stand proud while the others are in awe of what a great parent you are!
*mention your health food store...
*better yet, carry your eco-totes, 
*wear yoga inspired tops or organic tees. 


*mention your recycle bin....the $ your kids have saved at the bottle recycle center at your grocery store...
*mention that they're paying for their own trip to a random country, other than the u.s.a.  the $ from their recycled bottles will be paying for! 
*when you're asked about the vacation  destination.... be sure to nod your head no because your kids will going to a country with no running water or dirty water...tetanus shots are required.

just sayin'....you'll be way more interesting than if you talk about your kids and their new blackberries, cell phones,
i-pods
i-tunes accounts and their shallow shoppinghabits of conspicuous consumption....and their diet of starbucks frappechinos and blueberry muffins!
just sayin'.
back to us and our plans for the weekend.  we can't order pizza, we did that last night.  we will do our best.  i will try not to crack under the pressure and stress and eat peanut m&m's.
 
we will begin our saturday morning with starbucks coffee.
tp://www.starbucks.com/ 
biff and i might have more than one cup...maybe, living in the fast lane that we do...we will have 3 cups.  not to be confused with yuppies, which we were but cannot admit.  we're not proud of it anymore....it lands like a cannonball in conversation rather than  a darling dive. that's when i talk of my outward bound trip and my personal growth....
oh, and i did train for a marathon!  oops, at the last minute i chickened out. that's not good in today's conversation.
it's way better to have blown a knee at mile 24 on my fourth marathon for cancer or diabetes or world hunger. better ix-nay on the marathon-nay!
make a note of that...it will save you lots of stares and discomfort after the cannonball
today. this is my life. ready. go.
wake up.
talk to biff about our lives...maintenence life...
kids,
dog walks, 
list my vintage on e-bay, 
pay the dog sitters today, 
kid schedules, bank,
post office, 
biff work updates...he just got another order, my e-bay updates, sold some, mailed some.  sold the tracy porter 
http://stores.ebay.com/littlemarymixup?_rdc=1 
cake plate. sold the j.crew cardigan sweater. sold the tracy porter cake knife. sold the tin kitchen sign.  oops. gotta mail it
out!  that's my biggest challenge....but, i'm getting it done!  mom would be proud since i didn't get her organizational abilities or her good post office karma....but, i'm learning...finally.












oops. gotta mail it out!


that's my biggest challenge....but, i'm getting it done!  mom would be proud since i didn't get her organizational abilities or her good post office karma....but, i'm learning...finally!

http://www.bhg.com/home-improvement/storage/around-the-house/ideas-for-garage-organization/ 

pick up kids=when?
sleep over kids=yes or no?
sleep over kids= time?
grocery shopping=


need milk,




need cereal





biff and i=need a
exercise and a date, not in that order. 
 




oops. i stopped to write here on my blog and stopped listing my e-bay vintage! 
http://stores.ebay.com/littlemarymixup?_rdc=1 






gotta go. what was that i was saying about structure?  

oh, by the way, t.j. ended up going to a friend's house....and also had a spontaneous sleepover!

grace has 2 fun friends sleeping over...one who's afraid of dogs. just an hour ago, grace asked me casually, "oh and could you do something with the dogs? macy is afraid of them...terrified actually...so, could you move them somewhere?" then after my directions, she left the room.  i wonder where she thinks the dogs will go?  a spa for the night?  a movie?  the girls are all revved up to watch "marley and me".... 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kG6zQypICH8

and they've got the tissue.

"see ya" soon....here or e-bay!
http://stores.ebay.com/littlemarymixup?_rdc=1